Life seems to be a collection of returns. Return to self mostly, and living seems to be a collection of distractions. Today I re-visited this blog I neglected for months (busy collecting words?) and started with the poem “Inexorable Deities” by Edgar Lee Masters, that re-ignited my wondering around this life and the urge to express myself both through words and images.
In a recent interview with fashion designer Diane von Fürstenberg she was asked about the things she was proudest of. The first part of her answer included her children, but came some words that really resonated with me at a rather deep level: “I trust myself, I respect myself, I know I am a good girl. I know I can rely on myself. I like my own company. I’m funny. I talk to myself and have a good time.”
I turned her answer into questions for myself: Do I trust myself and know I can rely on myself? Do I respect myself? I know I’am funny and a good girl as well, yet I could add a little more respect and trust. Looking back at the rocky past 5 years I know I can rely on myself…
I have to admit something, I am turning 50 very soon, and maybe that’s why I am reflecting on things. No, not worried, I actually embrace getting older, the “ripening” process feels good. I still have dreams, and maybe I should dare to dream a little bigger perhaps…
“When your mind is stretched by a big idea, it will never return to it’s original shape”. – Thomas Carlyle
Getting to this point in life I see as an opportunity to come even closer to my core and from there I feel I have the perfect vantage point of taking in more of this beautiful realm and share and spread out, sparkling up other souls in need of a little light.
All is well,